"JGrabowMSt" (jgrabowmst)
03/14/2014 at 00:27 • Filed to: growingup | 2 | 7 |
From across the intersection, it actually looked rather sinister. I would get it in Stormtrooper (white with black accents) or full on black with just the regular chrome parts. Not much of a caddy fan, but it looked pretty damn nice.
Other than that, just a long day. I haven't been feeling that great lately. Met a cool guy this morning (team doctor for Red Bull Soccer USA), but I just haven't had a real day off in a while, and my spring break has just turned into full time work, and I dread the daily grind of finishing school this semester. I need a real vacation.
I have a laundry list of health problems that seem to catch up to me at bad times, this being one of them. My girlfriend is sort of understanding, but she wont really let it go, and she knows about all of it, so it's not like there's anything to really talk about. I want to sleep, she wants to watch TV, so I sleep, and she watches TV, but then she'll pause the on-demand, and come wake me up to ask me if I'm okay. We don't fight, but she wont always accept my answers to certain questions, and I'm not going to change my answer just because she doesn't like it, so things feel a bit tense. We don't live together, so it's nice to be able to go home when this happens, but it makes me nervous. I don't doubt our relationship for a second, we're both very happy with it, but maybe things seem a little off because I'm not feeling that great. I'm just concerned about our future.
Once in a while she'll ask me about when we're moving out, or getting married, and she isn't exactly being serious about it, but she did seem taken a little off-guard when I asked her opinion on a wedding band (for me), but didn't really have any details. She didn't seem to freak out, but she seemed very anxious after that I usually just tell her "after I graduate" when the topic comes up, because truthfully, I need to graduate first. My closest friends are well aware of where I stand with whether or not I plan to pop a question (in case she reads this ever), and that's pretty well decided. She wants it, I know she does, but she seems so nervous when it actually comes up (understandably), so I'm happy with waiting for when I feel is the right time. One thing I know is that I'm not getting married twice, and I want a long, happy and healthy marriage. Sure I only turn 23 at the end of the month, but that's a mindset for me that I will not change.
There's a massive part of the bigger picture missing from this, but it's too personal as far as our relationship goes, so just know it doesn't change anything above, merely explains some of it and puts it into context.
Can things just be simpler already? I hear cars speeding around me down the back roads, I wish I could go join them to clear my head, but I'm too tired for today. Work in the morning again.
Smokey dreams all
efme
> JGrabowMSt
03/14/2014 at 00:39 | 0 |
Creeper part: pics?
therapist part: wait until you're well into your 20s if you want a higher chance of success. I personally, and a lot of my college friends have changed dramatically/grown up in our mid/late 20s
Singhjr96
> JGrabowMSt
03/14/2014 at 01:36 | 0 |
I saw an actual cts-v a few days ago. It gunned it down the highway off-ramp. SOUNDED SO GOOD!
JGrabowMSt
> Singhjr96
03/14/2014 at 07:38 | 0 |
Theres a pretty high number of them locally (-V's). I hope the new body style gets the V because I do think its worthy. The older style is very good, this newer one is definitely an improvement.
They do make a fantastic sound, there should be more of them.
JGrabowMSt
> efme
03/14/2014 at 07:52 | 0 |
No pics..part of everything I didnt get into. The very condensed version is that there are some absolutely sick people in the world, and I hope they die in a horrificly slow and gruesome way.
Shes in her mid 20's, and not that I'm particularly proud, but between my parents and how I grew up, I've already done the drastic change. Some of my friends are far from it and need to take their time, I just had to, in part because being a kid was never really an option. Not that there isnt room for improvement, there always is...
Im in no rush to get married, and in a sense, she isnt either, but I know shes looking for that bit of normalcy to call her own, and I'm ready/prepared/willing to make that happen for her.
Singhjr96
> JGrabowMSt
03/15/2014 at 01:06 | 0 |
There isn't many around Seattle. They are like unicorns sorta.
saabstory | fixes bikes, breaks cars
> Singhjr96
03/18/2014 at 02:40 | 0 |
There's a black V wagon and a silver V coupe I see fairly often on I-5 by Capital Hill. There's also a black IS-F I see around there too and all I can think about is how it has too many gears.
Singhjr96
> saabstory | fixes bikes, breaks cars
03/18/2014 at 22:18 | 0 |
The one I saw was black getting onto 1-5 south. Could've been the same one. Who knows. But there's a ferrari owner close by me that drives it every weekend in the summer, and he guns it up my hill, and it sounds so good since the noise in my neighborhood echoes on the hill.